6 units more and a long road to hell to go

to say one is 'sated' means one is satisfied or is in a state of complete satisfaction. therefore that's not the way to describe how i feel when it comes to computer programming in general.

sick of it - that's the way to go.

it's strange.to think i've been itching to be a programmer since HS. now i kick myself in the nuts every morning when i wake up for sticking to this course and not taking up Creative Writing in UP Diliman. i qualified for that too, and now seven years after UPCAT i *still* see no light in the end of the tunnel i've been digging all this time; even the light from the other end is not even visible anymore.

so yeah, to say that i'm scalp-deep in shit i dug up myself is an understatement.

this soliloquy begs the question: after graduation, if i ever graduate that is, what next? it's true - once you start a 8hr gig and join the rat race, you start yearning for the bullshit called college. hey, after six years in it, i have the right to say that college is at least part bullshit. what i know in programming now i really didn't learn in school - i learned it as a Student Assistant where i'm working now and later on on my own by asking Google and everybody else. A lot of the hard lessons i know i learned by being an ass and paying for the consequences. 

Not everything is taught at school. hell yeah. 

(maybe we should abolish it then…)

Don't mind the id.

(admit it, the seed is there already…) 

Fuck you. anyway. What next? i know this isn't really the time for a quarter-life crisis. Maybe i'll ruminate on this when i'm sleep deprived.

(aren't you now sleep deprived?)

Arrgh. Fuck off.