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Home » Post Item » [Bargaining] Day 5: 0030H, 062308. (Self never) forgiven, (you’re) not forgotten*

[Bargaining] Day 5: 0030H, 062308. (Self never) forgiven, (you’re) not forgotten*

July 2, 2008

    Memories. One can really hate how memories about someone have this nasty tendency to ambush you when and where you least expect them to. While riding a bike and partially hearing a random song from the random radio you suddenly remember that someone singing the same song to you and laughing that laugh you so loved; when the sound of the first drops of a hard rain falling upon the GI roof reaches your ears you suddenly remember that cold rainy afternoon spent snuggled on the couch, looking into each others’ eyes, tracing one’s contures with the other’s lips; when you sniff a certain scent from a random passerby you suddenly remember how that someone’s nape smells so sweet and sensous even after a long day… you get the picture.

    Let’s attack this problem logically shall we; e.g. using logic, see if one can get avoid being ambushed from nowhere by these memories about someone. 

    IF         when and where you least expect them to, memories about someone will ambush you

    THEN
        expecting an ambush everytime from memories about someone will not allow
        those memories to ambush you when and where you least expect them to

    (if p then q; therefore if !p then !q)

    But consider - by definition, memories are stored information in the mind about situations already experienced and the sensory data from the aforementioned situations. For a certain experience or situation to qualify as a ‘memory’, one must be able to remember actively or passively if one has previously experienced the current situation and/or one has encountered before the sensory data currently perceived by the sense organs. A ‘memory about someone’ is a memory associated to that someone; a certain scent, a certain situation etc.

    Therefore, to say that the current situation is a ‘memory with someone’, one must remember actively or passively if the current situation has already been experienced with that someone. However, you’d just end up recalling memories with that someone, which is the primary thing you were trying to avoid in the first place - remembering the memories about someone.

    And of course, forgetting about that someone is NOT an option.

(A/N: * - from the title of a Corrs song. Of course, if there’s one person anyone can rarely forgive, it’s one’s self. And yes, forgetting that someone is NOT an option.)

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    Truth be told, I've known for a few years already how big a mistake it was when I picked one course over the other when I qualified for both of them in a certain state university. Even now I kick myself in the nuts at least once everyday for that lousy call. And the fact that it's infeasible (and rather stupid) to back out now rubs more salt to the still-sore nuts. Salted eggs anyone?

    Because of that, my Muse went on a no-shit, no-holds-barred, no-retreat-no-surrender strike. Creativity died; it even held a funeral for itself in disgust and flipped me the finger from its grave.

    But things are making its way out of the crypt. Bits and pieces of plots have been visiting me during unlikely hours - while staring at lines of code, while taking a dump and freezing my butt off in the process, in my dreams. It seems the Muse is back, albeit begrudgingly. Coincidence? Maybe not.

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the Boy Scout:

Dood! You were so right on with your pros + cons about this site. But you forgot 1 thing, dood. Dotph is so damn popular that if you google your blogname it won’t even come out in the results. Yeah, that famous, dood! Rock on!!!!!!

AlessandriaOng:

-gasp- you found me! x] lol yes i’ve been visiting your abode quite a few times but it seems that you have yet to update it. i do hope the muse comes back and begs you for forgiveness!

arc:

@AlessandriaOng Wow. Blast from the past. Haven’t been there since… forever. LOL, I’m not even sure if I had an account there XD

AlessandriaOng:

do you mind if i ask under what penname you write in fanfiction.net? : )

arc:

@AlessandriaOng hi there, welcome to my humble abode. Thank you for the kind words. Feel free to look around; just don’t mind the dust. :D

AlessandriaOng:

The way you weave simple words into vivid imagery simply delights me. Love it!

pia:

keep it up. I’m reading. :D

arc:

@christa - why welcome to my rather humble abode. yep, IMO this setup has more pros than cons, but that’s just me. i really hope the things i’ve posted made sense haha. enjoy your stay here.

Christa:

I guess having your own account here is a lot better than fanfiction.net in many ways. :) Very creative writing style, I like it.

Ancia:

reminds me of alice in wonderland.

Vera:

antiseptic is good. it’s clean alright.

arc:

i’d say antiseptic. or maybe even minimalist. welcome to my little cesspool of so-called literary efforts.

Vera:

it’s so.. white. and cold.

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